And again, after for so long I kept quiet, it happened. For once, I thought I was done with it. But now, I just cannot believe things turn back to its roots again. Whether it turns out well or not this time round, depend on the decisions I have to make. I learnt my lessons. I had enough. Please, all these feelings are making me feel so insecure as a person, a man. I should be more decisive, and not too laid back. People are stepping over my limits once in a while. Do I need help? Its an obvious. But who can? These thoughts and feelings are so conjoint with each other that it is too complicated even for Einstein to solve it.

I'm confused by it myself. At one time, I felt all these are a complete waste of time. But I simply cannot ignore these little things. I just have one aim; I don't want anything to change because of this. It happened once and we are so fucked up by it. And till today, I'm not sure whether we're suppose to be in talking terms or not. I regret it had to happened, but that's the past. I guess it was over, somehow. I guess. But now, it happen again.

What's my next move? I just want to let everything off my chest but its all a matter of time. Dear God, please assist me in this one.