Thoughts of it could never had save the situation. I, myself, do had chances to turn things around. But I rather not take advantages of the current motions 'cause nothing had hurt me this much. Nothing else could compare to this.

As I set my aims, thinking that turning 20 could be everything. Instead, it just did carry on with the episodes. Why things couldn't change by itself? I would, or should, expected more and better changes to the plot in this part of the story. Pass out on this part, so I could somehow have a little faith in me. Now I'm done with magical words, what else can I do to make things right for you and everyone? It seems very easy for other people to comply with new changes, but somehow people around them don't get too comfortable with it. Get it?

Some of you might not understand this. Yes, this is how complicated my thoughts are now.

Its been a decade since I lived on this. But nothing, possibly nothing could have pick me up again.