Its been awhile since I do updates. Here's one.

Just shifted to a new house. I like the new house. A bit bigger than the old one but nothing to special. But still, I'm in love with it. Thanks again for those who helped me out during the shifting process. Owe you guys a big one.

Now, I don't really understand why all these have to happen at this time. I had enough trouble getting the family together and holding them up. Now, friends are turning their back on me. I'm not too sure. Am I not doing enough for everyone to see? I could have been a nasty friend, if I wanted to. But I don't want 'cause I appreciate every moment spent with them. I don't really get it. If history says that friends are there to stay with you, why do I have problems when having friends around me?I'm not in favour when friends turn their back. I don't really expect that to happen. I had nothing in this World left, except friends and family. If I lose either one, I'll go bonkers.

At times, I don't feel that sense of appreciation. I appreciate everyone. But do the other party doing the same thing? Or am I just another guy in their lives who says hi and goodbye after that? I know, you might say that I'm just thinking too much. But I can sense anything. Even though its not the real thing, but somehow it will lead me to something which, at times, is a hard truth that I had to swallow. Now I rant everything here. But I'll bet, afther this, nothing could have happen. Yes, I admit I can't change anything. But, do I have a choice? I do want to live. No choice, but I have to make the change myself. I want to live in peace. Not in some trashbag condition where I have to sit back and just watch everything just crumble down right in front of me.

I've done a lot of things to keep up with the pace. I try to be the best out of the best. But no one can still see it through. No one. I don't ask alot actually. I just want to feel being appreciated. Thats all. I know I'm not supposed to beg for appreciation. But, thats all I need, now.

To tell the truth, everything just crumbled down. And I hate it.

I feel like punching, tearing my laptop apart now. I'm damn angry with everything.

God, I feel like tearing everything down. Seriously.