Gahh. Its been a while since the last update. I just can't find that correct time to update this blog of mine. Been working late nights straight last week, and two more weeks to come. Sorry to all.

My energy level are draining down very well. School have been left out and can't kept focus on it. My focus have been shifted to the house's expenses and my own expenses. Since Dad's not been working because of his case, I have to work my ass out. He too, can't say anything much. He worries about my school, but he can't stop me from working 'cause he knew I'm the next income earner. I'm not trying to boast or something, its just the real thing right now. So he just keep things neutral nowadays. He knows I'm doing something right.

And to me, its something right either. I'm losing out on school for something that is good. I got no other choice. If I don't do this, either way I would lose too. I'm stuck in a win-lose situation right now. But still, I have to be either in the winning side or the losing side. I don't ever want to lose out on school, but if I stop working, who's going to support the family? I swear if I stop working, it does make a lot of difference. It really does.

So stop harassing me with sayings that school is much important than money and stuff. Zip it. I knew that a long time ago. But in reality and current situation, that saying have to be put aside and reality come first. So for those who like to blabber their words at me saying about school and stuff, shut up. You don't know what I'm going through right now. And if you got nothing to help with, then I suggest you save your breath and find alternatives to help me. If you don't want so, then help yourself by keeping a distance from me. You're just not helping, I swear.

How I wish late Mama was still around. Sure thing she sort this out. =(